Beautiful sunny Sunday. Not much going on, just trying to study as much as possible, not having much luck. For some reason I feel as though I am always short of breath, but that maybe because, I should wear some tracky dacks rather than jeans. Other than that the text isn't very logical in its description of chemistry, its quite dithery and it is very annoying.
Spent the night alone again, boyfriend played his hockey then had drinks at the clubrooms and went home to his house after.
I don't sleep very well, because I am shit scared of someone burgling the house during the night. So every creak and groan makes me sit upright or head out with a pair of nunchucks to check every room.
Actually Phil, having a dash bar like yours would be quite good, I shall look into what I can do.
Have fun everyone.

oK, obviously if I had gone to nightfill I wouldn't be sitting here typing this blog. I ended up ringing up the nightfill squad and declining to come in, on the basis that I am anticipating my exams in the coming weeks and would like as much time as possible to study over the weekend.
Then my day job, well this job is the one that I'm always moaning about, as it drags out and really leaves me tired, when it comes to hitting the books at home (the house which I stupidly bought two years ago, on my own.) at the end of the day.
Hey Phil, thanks for offering to do that, though I just don't think I have the expertise to alter anything in computer land.
Your movie observations are soo funny and true, it is good to see you resist being sucked in, when distinguishing between a crap and quality film.
It is autumn here, and its still warm and sunny, only one month shy of winter, I am starting to get concerned about the globe, with weather like this, so advanced into the cold months.
Out to space everyone.

Ah Friday, I am in a stick, I was asked on Wednesday night if I could do night fill for tonight, I said yes. It now happens that I don't really want to go as I am, anxious to pack as much study into the next couple of weeks for upcoming exams.

Hello all,
long time no blog, shit I've made some stupid life choices such as buying this house a couple of years ago and get a full time job to pay for it, which is grossly interfering with my studies.
My other brother came up from the farm and visited me over the weekend, a girl he was keen on, dumped him, so rather than spending time with her, he was moping around my house. I got him on the PS2 and he played alot of Doom, he caught up with other bro, whom moved out couple of weeks ago and they went to see Star Wars Episode 3. I still havn't seen the film so they have been sworn to secrecy.
It is hard for farm kids to hold down a relationship, all the girls want to go to the city and stay there and city guys just plain like to give farm girls a hard time.
Hey Phil you are a thoughtful guy, looking out for those girls and getting them home, I'd give myself a pat on the back for that.

I can't remember if I mentioned the Pirates Fancy dress party I went to on Saturday night, what a blast, its such a ball, getting dressed up and having a laugh at everyones costumes. Had quite a few beverages mind you, but was still able to tear up the floor rug (dance).
I went as a psychedellic wench, don't know why I just felt like doing something a bit space age.
Hey Phil, look after yourself when hitting the books that hard, or you'll go grey early. If I ever make it to Canada, I shall take you down the road for a couple of drinks.
Out to space everyone.

I am feeling tired, have just returned from a two day workshop out at a bush lodge, on team building for my purchasing job. Stayed up late playig Jukka, I quite like this card game, and my team whipped arse. Unfortunately I polished off a couple too many wines and the late night has left me feeling, incredibly tired. Which is stupid of me, it would be more worth my while, if it was a late night for something worthy like studying for chemistry or maths. Phil, you are going to wear yourself out, by sleeping in the graduate math lab, this surely can't be good for your body. Though I guess on the other hand, at least your doing it while your young and fit and your body can handle it alot better.
I was pondering, how I am glad to not be living in an extremely cold country like Canada, as then I would not be able to go horse riding as often, it would be more expensive to keep horses in a cold climate, like that of Canada's.
Still I look forward to attempting a bit of snowboarding, one day in the future.
Out to space

Things are ok at the office job and I have finally had my night hours cut down to only one night a week. Hopefully this will give me more time to get my homework and study done, as its been an upcliff struggle up till now. I really need some advice with my office job, from the previous guy who had the position, I think I shall get him to actually come to the office and show me how to use the computer program to get things done PROPERLY!!!
As I really need HELP.
I hope so much that he does help and it sorts everything out.
Out to space everyone

my daytime job (storeperson) is getting very tough. It would seem that, I possibly, just am not cut out for this type of work. Hey Phil thankyou for the comments, you are supportive through your wisdom and good luck with your research project.
My brother has moved out completely, I gave him a farewell hug and wished him all the best for the future. Now I am home aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall alone. Its a bit strange, though I'm sure I shall adjust fairly quickly as thats how I was living before my brother moved in.
Ok I had best get my nose to the grind.
Out to space everyone.

Sunday night, the weekend has flown by. I am having trouble doing my math, I am so slow, I keep getting stuck on one thing and it holds me up for hours, this time it was sketching gradient graphs, I still don't understand them. Sketching a gradient graph, from viewing the original function, no numbers nothing and I am nearly going to crawl in a giant hole and wish I didn't exist. It is really getting me down. Everything is bloody getting me down, I am not coping with load I have taken on, I have fucked up everything, I have taken on too much, studies, two jobs aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah faaaaaaaaaaaaaaark. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK.
I think, I will also stop writing blogs as I don't like the fact that everyone can read about all my shit. I'm sure that my babbling makes no difference to the price of tea in china. Shit I have lost the plot.

Another day, another dollar. Work is plodding along ok. Nothing exciting going on at my end of the world. I am trying to accumulate a few days off so I can go to my exams, I really feel I need to decide about wether I shall continue working and pay off my house, or focus all my energy into finishing my studies. I do feel the latter is more important, shall keep moving and stop thinking about it, because I won't achieve anything by sitting around worrying about it.

Me at age 14, enjoying a relaxed showjumping competition and letting my school grades go down the drain. Horses are worth it.