21-09-06 11.30am

Well. I'm quite sick at the moment, have somehow developed a really sore throat and am coughing up yellow flem from my lungs. Have been gargling salt water and it seems to have helped, but I am sure its a bout of flu, as my joints are aching and I feel bitterly cold.
Taking pain relief helps alot.
Have been trying to find a job, hopefully some offers will come my way soon.

16-09-06 09:00am

Hi everybody, how are you all today.
I have just finished reading the biography of my passed on friend Saul Dost, he is one very smart cookie and a magnificent wordsmith. He absolutely blitzed education yet sought work in the mines, I worked alongside him for 3 and a bit years at Plutonic gold mine and couldn't get enough of his huge knowledge and enormous skill and love of math.
No, don't get me wrong, he was not a lover or intimate partner, we were good friends and I respected him greatly and still do, even beyond death.
I guess I am intrigued by people good at math, as once when I was young I was good at it and loved it too, unfortunately when I hit high school, bullying and loner status sent me into depression and I refused to learn, as I hated being at school and didn't feel they deserved my hard work.
The teachers or principal did not do anything about school bullying or physical abuse and this darkened me more. I remember once even being removed from technical drawing, due to a supposed reduced intake and I was over the limit and had to do home economics (cooking).
I guess I still hold this as a huge anger the size of a atom and wish dearly to regain my scholarly ability and regain what was rightfully mine - a decent education free of being bashed, #####, and other stuff.
I don't like revealing stuff like this, but I don't like people judging me as inept when they don't know the full story.
Reading about Dosty has given me a stone of strength and I hope now I can use it wisely and effectively to gain what I want out of life.

14-09-06 08.45am

morning everyone, I just woke to hear a gunman tried shooting students in a College in Montreal. hope you guys are ok and I am sorry to hear the bad news.
I met four Canadians on my trip through Africa, one was a maths teacher, another a statistics graduate, but I can't remember what the other two did, I think one worked as an admin officer for the government, but I can't remember what Leah did.
The stats Guy, gave me a different perspective on filling in surveys, I was filling one in and didn't want to do it, Stats guy said he wasn't going to fill it in and he has never done a census either, because of the ease of manipulation of information. Ironically when Bob and I got back to Perth, we had missed census night by two days, I read the form anyway and it pissed me off. I rang up the census hotline and told them that they are full of shit. Why the hell do they need to know what religion I follow or what I earn and how I earn it. They tried telling me it was because they need to know where to spend money, eg put up shops, schools etc. I told her she was full of shit, because I have lost several friends on bad country roads over the last decade and the government still has not fixed the roads. She went quiet, I apologised but told her I still think its a bunch of crap to do a census, that they only need to peep in your house and do a head count and that be it. I also said I will make sure I am not in the country whenever a census comes around because I don't think its any of their business what I earn.
I apologise for venting my feelings on these issues.

11-09-2006 11am

The weekend was busy, saturday we had Bob's hockey final, which they unfortunately lost by one goal in the dying minutes. I then got a migraine, but it was luckily a minor one and later on I visited Belinda in hospital, as she has got an infection which isn't unusual since she has no neutrophils from the chemo.
Sunday I helped weed Bob's garden at his house, I then visited Belinda after that again, but briefly as I felt extremely tired, probably because the migraine was having its way. Then this morning I went to the dentist and had stage one of two of a root canal, it cleaned out an infected tooth and despite feeling numb faced and my pulse always races from the anaesthetic, I feel alright. Really glad to have infected tooth fixed up, my teeth are really good shape except for this one tooth, but when stage two is concluded next monday morning it will be as good as the rest of the teeth in my gob.
Hope your all keeping well and being good friends to each other.

This is the sand dunes of Namib Nakluft national park in Namibia, I dedicate this photo to Dosty he lived and worked and loved the desert. A shame dear friend that you wont get to see your baby when it is born. I believe that this baby will have more of your spirit than anything and you will be in our memories forever. I wish I could see you once more, to show you my trip and bag out Matchbox 20.
Love
Michelle