30/07/2007: Monday I took day off work

I felt like posting yet another picture of myself and why not, its my blog I can do what I like. I went to a twenty first birthday a couple of weekends ago and my mum took this photo of me at 18 weeks pregnant. The party was good fun, a bit wet and cold though.

I am having some personal dilemmas, in the sense that me and my best friend have completely different tastes and it is really starting to show, we like different movies to relax to and different conversation topics. I feel I am starting to struggle now, with the fact she is a lesbian because I don't understand her need to push it in my face and make me feel bad for being straight and shoving her activist protest stuff in my face like I am some kind of fellon. I don't understand it. Plus all she does is bang on and on about sex and kissing and how many people she kissed at a kiss party in tasmania.

I am really starting to feel betrayed by her now, she used to be casual, easy going and funny, but now I am afraid she will start beating me with her cat of nine tails, just so she can talk about sex again. I think it is fantastic for her to come out of the closet and be proud of her sexuality, but why is she thrusting it at me like it was my fault she didn't come out sooner.

I don't know what to do, and I no longer want to drive round and hang out as I know she will only want to talk about sex and make me feel bad for being pregnant etc etc.