Friday 16th June 2006 9.13am

Friday, Bel is into her fifth day of chemo today for this cycle (Cycle number 1), this cycle will hopefully cease on monday. We are only at the very beginning, I miscalculated or was misinformed of how far Bel had left to go.
I found out last thursday that all the chemo and hospital stays over the past 5 weeks, was not a part of Bel's routine cycle and that it was an initial phase to save her life, since pulling through she is now able to enter the routine chemo therapy cycles. This news stunned me, but I told Bel's mum at the time that it was no problem and that we can deal with it. I went home feeling myffed and sliding down a hole of fear. But I mananged to pull myself back up and believe that we can still do this, since we have come this far.
This photo was taken over the weekend, Bel is getting heaps of tuku's ( I think thats what you guys call them) sorry I can't remember the spelling. We are in winter over here, but unfortunately it has brought no rain, just clear sunny but cold days, unfortunately 60% of our farming has been plunged into drought because of it.
Chat again soon.
Michelle